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the anatomy of suffering

By Deanna Horton

Nobody knows what to do with sad people. I remember this mostly on Tuesdays

when my grandmother chews her tears, mopping grief

in the dry heat of a wet August.

Mostly when my mom kneels in front of me,

eyes heavy over my drowsy skin:

whatever it is. Take it out on me. Not yourself.

Nobody knows what to do with sad people. It's all I can think of as I burn into my mattress,

eating the hours for breakfast.

Tastes like sophomore year of highschool — sore throats

and the boy who tolerated me.

I just don't know what's gotten into you lately.

Nobody knows what to do with sad people. I say this only in places I've bled before

like the tub that drowned me four times a day and

arranged my lungs on the tile.

Nobody cares at fourteen because the first time you were a slut,

you were eleven.

It's been so many years.

Nobody knows what to do with sad people, so I throw this body out back and

beg for a new one.

Nobody knows what to do with sad people, so

I lug this hurt to the pharmacy and

follow the written rules.

Nobody knows what to do with sad people, so

I want a well-lit basement in the suburbs, wine red shutters, and 

a million chances to get it right.

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